The End

For all intents and purposes, this will be my last entry here.

Two weeks ago, I said goodbye to David. I sent him an email asking him to not contact me anymore.

We really don't have any kind of a future together, for many reasons, and I have found that I just cannot be friends with him. I feel way too strongly about him and I'd never be able to get past it.

It's for the best.

For the record, I still do, and probably always will, believe that we are soulmates.

I still do, and probably always will, love him more than anyone else.

But it's time to move forward. My life is too complicated when David is in it, and so I have to leave him be.

And it's time to focus on the man who is actually with me in the trenches every single day. Things with us have improved remarkably, and I have come to realize that he is truly the life partner I deserve. Does that mean things are perfect? No, not at all. And if I'm being honest, I will never feel the same pull for him that I feel for David...but then again, he will never, ever break my heart. I am drawn to David like a moth to a flame, and I fear that eventually I would get burned. Again.

Everything's a trade-off in life. I've learned that in the past year.

So goodbye, my love. I will always cherish what we had. And you will always be with me in my heart.