Resolve

I am hurting.

I am not sleeping well.

I feel really shitty.

I miss David so much, I can just about taste it in my mouth.

It seems the weather this week has been reflecting my emotions. Every day has been grey, overcast, rainy, and miserable.

I feel like the biggest joy in my life has been wiped out.

But I'm doing the right thing, aren't I? I'm putting aside my own selfish desires (spending time with him) in an effort to get across the message that I cannot and will not see him if he is still using.

Why is the right thing to do always the most difficult?

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Something that I felt today
Something that I heard
Swinging from the chandelier
Hanging on your word

I remember watching you
Once upon a time
Dancing from across the room
In another life

A little bit of resolve
Is what I need now
Pin me down
Show me how

Looking back to find my way
Never seemed so hard
Yesterday's been laid to rest
Changing of the guard

I would never change a thing
Even if I could
All the songs we used to sing
Everything was good

A little bit of resolve
Is what I need now
Pin me down
Show me how

One more year that you're not here
Has gone and passed you by
What happened to you?

One more tear that you won't hear
Has gone and passed you by
What happened to you?

Foo Fighters